sick.... (-_-)

these few days i keep on losing my mood...at first i was period..then, i get sick..having CHICKEN POX.... 2 days already..

and know..i dont know why..keep on feeling lonely..

i know i have my best fwen..i know..but somehow..i dont want  to depend on others coz one day i need to survive on my own..

eventhough feeling like wanna *&%-_--- ; but i try to convince my self to be strong..

even i'm basically is weak....

i'm a girl fill up with so many weakness..

keep on making others in trouble..

continuing giving others problem..

that make me a very problematic girl...

starting from my child age i keep on feeling neglected..

never being given attention..

tas a sequences,i become so 'nakal'..

and doing  much more trouble..

so, i think there's nothing to be weird on  when people see i'm alone..

i close my mouth towards my my beloved family and included my cousin from talking about myself..

about my problem..

as i dont want to hurt themselves..

coz me my ownself creating problem..

i'm so tired..

very2 tired...

losing my beloved fwen..being so far away....rarely massanging..

no place to have 'talk-talk'..

no body care,,...

no one........

i know this is my own fault..

for not taking a good care towards myself..but somehow i cant force myself anymore..

i'm too tired..

for those who dont understand myself,its ok..u can blame myself..

but i juz want u to know how its feel being so lonely...

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~sad regards......~~~